| | My last blog sucked ass. In fact, my day sucked ass. I spent 5 and a half hours on a paper, because my partner didn't do what she was supposed to over the weekend, then on my way home I fell over on my bike and fucked up my elbow and hip. And when I fell, all these tears spilt out. they just kept coming and coming, I don't know from where. maybe it was from the stress of school. I have 26+ pages due by the end of the semester, 10 of which are the begining of my engineering portfolio, that I have to present to the faculty of my department. No, I can deal with school, if I can't, I am screwed, it is all that I have. So maybe it was the fact that I lost my best friend, and no amount of apoligising will ever bring him back. The only way he will come back is if I go against my head and heart and "accept Christ as my savior". I don't know, I mean I can't really fight that I don't know what I really think or feel, because I don't. I don't even know who I am. So I guess that isn't it. Maybe it is because I have been feeling homesick for the past week. I miss being close to the ppl who loved me, even if it is obligatory. It is just that damn hole, that emptyness, that cancer. It is never going to go away, why won't it go away? God, it hurts, so much. I just want it to be gone. sigh, maybe I should divert this energy to writing my essay. |
| | Posted 4/8/2003 12:42 AM - 1 View - 1 eProp - 1 Comment
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